There are things that I want to do and things that I have to do and things that I end up doing because I’m avoiding the previous things listed. For instance. I feel like drawing. The problem is that I don’t know where my sketch pad is.
I could very well pick up a piece of paper and draw and this would satisfy my desire yet in a way it doesn’t count. Drawing on single sheets of paper either find their way into the trash bin or are never finished therefore I must find my sketch book.
However by looking for the book, I’m doing something that I don’t want to do. I have to organize or clean up my apartment. So now do I clean, and risk the chance of not finding the book or do I decide to write about it and happen to see the drawing pad next to my computer…I’m an idiot an idiot that no longer feels like doodling.